I feel that Krav has given me my life back. I know that sounds crazy, but a few years ago, I was beaten so far down mentally, not to mention physically, that I didn't ever think I would be able to build myself back up INSIDE to be the person I wanted to be.
I am by nature a very outgoing and loving person.. My friends have always seen me as strong and independent, the person to go to for advice and help, when ultimately, because of my past abuse, I was putting on a painful front, pretending that I was strong, lying to my family and friends, when in reality; I was completely the scared on the inside.
It didn'tstart as a bad relationship. I have always wanted to see the good in everyoneand dug deep to find it, and didn't realize that with this person, I would bedigging so deep that I wasn't going to be able to get out alone.
The abuse started off as mental after a few months of dating, he started by making me feel bad for hanging out with my friends, spending time with my family and even broke my phone when I missed his call one day. That developed into him telling me things like your stupid, your ugly, your fat, and no one loved me. He broke me down so that I no longer had confidence in myself, and felt alone, where as before him, no words could ever faze me.
After he had his control he became violent towards me. I took a year of this abuse before my only friend who knew finally stepped in and called my family. We moved him out and I thought things were going to go back to normal. I lost 65 pounds in 3months, starting a month before we broke up, mostly because in my mind no one would ever love me unless I was skinny, and it took a toll on my body.
Two weeks after I kicked him out, my best friend died in a car accident, and two weeks later I lost two more friends, in separate accidents. I felt so over whelmed with everything and just wanted to give up on the world. I had to get a restraining order on him because he gave me death threats, and would drive by my work and home. I had to have a cop circle my place so that I felt safe when I got home from work.
Because of my amazing family I pulled through those hard months, and have gotten away from him. The bruises have healed, but the mental scars he gave me have always stuck around, and I not been able to convince myself that I can be as strong as I want to be.
Then I came to my first Krav Class 2 ½ years later. My friends from work, Rob and Tiffiney, convinced me to go and I will never forget it. I told my brother I was going and he said, "I'm pretty sure you can kick anyone's butt you don't need to take a class." That made me realize that I NEEDED to go, because I had been portraying myself as someone who had no fear, and people see me as a tough, strong person on the outside, but on the inside, in all reality, I was scared as hell.
After the class I sat in my car and got a little emotional, because for the first time in almost 4 years, I felt like somebody. I felt like I was the strong, independent woman everyone thought I was, and I suddenly felt no fear. I knew somewhere deep inside of me, TRUE confidence, like the confidence I "pretended" to have was in there, hiding, and I was finally able to release it! My anxiety has gone down so much since I started, and my strength, not just physical, but mental strength, is back, and I have a whole new family at Longoria's that is helping me build myself back.
I am now completely confident that I can achieve anything, and I will never have to go through anything like that again because of the new mental foundation that I have been able to build with the help of the Cardio Kicks and Krav Maga classes. I am so grateful to the Longorias' for having a program like this, not only to help train people to fight, but to help us be able to live my life with confidence, knowing that I can do ANYTHING I set my mind to, I am worth something, and no one can stand in my way.
Chelsey H.